Sunday, February 26, 2012

Hacked by Daniel :3

apparently i'm taking a break from blogging.
i don't really know how to form words much anymore.
i feel like i really have something to do tomorrow,
i just simply cannot remember

why do football players slap each others butts? o.O
i don't get it.

it'sa MEE, MAARIO.

we bought a zoo was a really good movie, by the way.
you should go see it c:
it was a perfect combination od
and happiness.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

i have hair.

purple c:
i have purple hair :3
i have to get braces on monday.
i want to write.
i don't
to write

what are words again?

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

i hope you all had as good as a valentines day as i did.

Friday, February 10, 2012

"once there was a llama and he was hungry. 
he screamed for waffles.
the panda master says "We all are out". 
he goes to the waffle kingdom, just to find that the king was kidnapped. 
He swam through mountains, and climbed the mediumest oceans until he got to the great dragon rat who had kidnapped the king. 
After fighting off the dragon rat, he found the king was dead. He returned to the kingdom, and found out he was next in the royal blood line, became king, and had waffles for the rest of his life."

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

i'm currently in this long
and confusing process of
figuring out who i am and
what i want to do with my life.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

I want to sleep,
But like most nights, I can't.
It's become foreign to me. A good night's sleep.
The thoughts race like sugar-high children on holiday morning. (No presents, kids. Sorry.)
I don't know where I'm going with this.
*Do I ever?
But seriously. I'm just sitting here, rambling. 

The winter winds are biting in.
I can feel it, not only on my skin but in my bones.
They shiver and rattle like our old play things.
I wish I could remember the feeling of my childhood. Don't get me wrong, I do have a pretty uncanny memory if i do say so myself. But see, there's the problem. I only have the memory of the moment, not the emotion. I don't know where it went. Growing up can be such a pain.

I'm really tired.

I have set up a playlist on spotify...
And this playlist, it's different. Each song doesn't mean much by itself in relation to me. But the mix of these fourteen songs provides a lens into my mind that only a few people on this Earth have ever known.
I apologize for bringing that up, since, well, I do not intend to disclose the order or even the title of those tracks. But they're playing in repetition, and I will probably listen to them all night. So yes, I apologize.

I've got a lot to apologize for.
But, "maybe redemption has stories to tell." Who knows?
I'm trying to reform, to change. I truly am trying to be the best I can be.
But forgive me when I stray, when I lose sight, when blindly I make my mistakes.
I know that ignorance and naivety are no excuse, but still I ask that you forgive me.

The animals just started making weird noises.
I hear them almost every night. I don't fear them as I used to, nor do I fear the sound.
But every time I hear thel sound, my neck quivers and my hairs find new life on arms and the back of my neck. I can't help that miniscule lightning bolt that snakes down the inside of my spine.
It's terrifying. It's beautiful.

I don't know why I find it beautiful. Maybe it's because that is them. Their raw existence being thrust out into the night sky. And you can tell, you can so tell.
You can tell if they howl out of anguish or sadness. You can hear the somber tones that sing to your body and tell you the tales of woe.
And you can tell if they sing in glee. You can feel the sensation of bliss explore your muscle fibers and awaken the primal soul inside of you.
And for a moment you know what it feels like to let go of yourself completely and be absolutely naked and vulnerable. You know it through their cries.
But when will you know it for yourself?
How do find that in ourselves?

I'm looking. I'm trying.
Again, forgive me as I wander that path to find it.
And don't worry,
I'll send a postcard if I get there.

Sunday, February 5, 2012

clearly ghetto capo'ing is the way to go ;D
no but in all seriousness,
i need a capo.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

that moment when things that shouldn't confuse you,
confuse you.

Lord, i need your help on this one.
so far this weekend has been the best.

Thursday- rock and worship roadshow!
loved it, and the people i was with :D
such a blast! like forrrealllll.
it was so fun,
and also emotional,
and just fantastic.
some of the stuff really hit me hard,
like mercyme.
they were awesome,
and accents are really cool :3

you are all beautiful!

Fridayy- spent the day with some great friends,
eliot is an AWESOME chef,
you haven't lived if you haven't ate his food :b
basically to sum up the night:
toe jumping,
people that taste like root beer,
hearing problems!
yeah, bro.

and the rest of the weekend should be awesome as well!
tomorrow is band practice!!!
and thennnn,


the one day of the year i actually watch football :b

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

that moment when you win an argument
by quoting the bible.
whoo hoo xD

this song actually means so much to me.

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise