i feel like i've been whining 

way 

too 

much 

on 

here 

lately.

my blog used to be so

happy!

i don't know,

it must be finals,

i'm really stressed.

i haven't even been making titles for my posts if you haven't noticed.

and i also haven't posted a picture

poem

or song

in

foreverrrrrr.

but i shall be posting pictures soon,

i got my new camera :3

that's basically the only good thing that's happened this week,

i STILL don't freaking have my license.

gdshfjkl

i'm so impatient.

i need some good music,

and some advil.

sorry i've been in such a bad mood.

:/

i still love you guys!

here's a poem i wrote, for an old friend.

Sincerity

Dear you,

The one who is blind.

Do me a favor,

And open your eyes.

OPEN YOUR EYES.

And look all around you.

Tell me, tell me,

Look all around you,

And tell me what do you see?

Is there only darkness?

And suffering?

And misery?

And sickness?

Is insanity the new sanity?

No.

SO OPEN YOUR EYES.

Look at all the faces around you,

That surround you,

Look up to you,

Look at you.

Precious, a gem,

It's not arrogance or mindless flattery,

But a fact, not debauchery.

SO OPEN YOUR EYES.

I thought I would try,

To be kind,

And gentle in the exposition,

And delivering of these words.

But your foolishness,

And stubbornness,

Is threatening more worlds,

Than you could imagine,

Than you could fathom.

SO OPEN YOUR EYES.

Sincerely from me,

From us,

To insincere you,

Who is blinded and misguided.

Open your eyes,

Where’s your compassion?

Where’s your sense of decency?

How dare you keep the thoughts in your head?

That scream, that say,

That tell you to take your own life?

You selfish little shell,

Will you open your eyes?

And take a look around you,

And see all the tragedy,

That you would cause if you’re not there in the morning,

If you’re not there in the afternoon,

If you’re not there in the evening,

Forget buying flowers and writing letters,

To be signed and put on gravestones.

Forget getting a gravestone,

And a shovel,

And a piece of dirt to bury you in.

Think of all the people.

Think of all the people.

Think of all the people you love and who loves you.

And everyone you’re leaving behind.

Can you see the tears?

Can you smell the tears?

Can you hear the tears?

Can you taste the tears?

Can you feel the tears?

Are you senseless to the tears?

And the nights that will be spent,

Washing pain from such pretty eyes,

Of the beautiful people in your life?

Can you feel the tears streaming down,

Such rosy, innocent cheeks?

Can you feel the screams and the wails and the moans?

So what if one or two don’t care?

So what if they never will?

I will.

And he will.

And she will.

And they will.

And we will.

So don’t give it up,

We love you, WE LOVE YOU.

We scream it, we shout it.

We love you, we love you.

Can’t you see what you’re giving up?

So sincerely us,

To insincere you.

Don't you dare do it,

Don't you dare try.

Don't you ever make the motions,

Don't you ever have the thoughts,

Don't you dare make us cry.

Open your eyes,

And see.

We love you.

Sincerely us,

Love, sincerely me.